Oh am I TIRED! I think the time change is having a delayed effect. And all because I always say that it doesn't really affect me. Ugh!
Also, on our way home this afternoon, Michael was screaming about anything and everything (not going in the elevator, not having the right sippy cup, not seeing a motorcycle, you get the idea). I pulled over once- which I never do- and then I called Mike and told him to meet me because my blood was boiling and I just did not feel safe to drive the kids home. I have pulled off the road to calm the kids down but I have never felt this way.
Michael can really push my buttons, no doubt. But I have never felt so overwhelmed. I did end up driving home after we had a few moments of calm. I called Mike back and told him that things had settled down. But I am thankful that I at least had the presence of mind to realize that I needed to get the car off the road and relax.
Our weekday routine is always stressful- no matter what I do to try and streamline things. It makes me not want to stay with this full time work thing. And our daycare is sucking away more than half my paycheck and it is NOT working out for our budget. This ALSO makes me not want to continue to work fulltime. Yet I am afraid to give up a job in this economy. And afraid to restart the whole daycare search. Our current daycare does not take kids part-time so we can't even drop the # of days. That would be my first choice if it were available.
So there are decisions to be made in the very near future- not fun decisions.
All this effort and no financial benefit is just not worth it...
2 comments:
You are giving it an honest try; do whatever is best for your family. It is SUCH a tough decision.
And I HEAR YOU on teetering on the edge. Calum does that to me nearly every day. At least once a week I feel like I might snap, sometimes more like once a day. Sometimes more like once an HOUR. It doesn't feel good.
Harper has definitely made me feel like that before - I do think it gets easier as they get older, the explosive moments spread out a bit. Wish there was something I could do to help!
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