Where is my summer going?!
I am finding myself revving into a tizzy of sorts (kind of like back in the spring).
What is up with me? Am I now going to have one anxiety fit per season?
So not ideal...
I just deactivated my Facebook account...my new first step in any stress-lowering plan. So that's a start.
The summer is supposed to be fun, right? And it has been fun- I can't really complain in general. Yet, I have to admit, I'm feeling very stressed at the moment.
There are a couple of tinges of drama lurking around that I could just as well do without. But because I've lost a sense of who might read this little blog of mine, I'm reluctant to spill it out here. Not that I am under the delusion that I have some massive following but there could be more people who know me IRL.
That thought is putting a damper on my writing freedom. I don't think I can really put everything out on the table anymore. Previously, there were maybe 3 friends of mine who are a regular part of my real life and might occasionally read here. I'm concerned that the number has increased. So I'm feeling a bit limited and at a loss about what to say. Because I really, really need to vent...about various relationships that are going through hard times and my inability to navigate the rough patches.
But that's all I can say at the moment. I guess I'm just hoping to have a few prayers and/or good vibes sent my way. The past few days have been a real bummer for me.
8 comments:
I am sending you hugs and good vibes right now, and when you come here I'll give you a real one!
I understand what you mean about limiting yourself on the blog -- I have lots of friends who read, people from the kids school, relatives, word has gotten around that "Aimee has a BLOG!" I don't want to hurt people, so there are things I don't/can't blog about, but it's especially hard when you are consumed by a particular event that you want/need to vent about. It seems like there is nothing else to write about except that thing you can't write about!
So that's when I just put up a picture of the kids instead. :)
Gosh, I hope my reading isn't part of the problem! Actually 2 of my friends IRL have recently gone through this. They handeled it 2 different ways, maybe one of them could work for you? 1 decided to make her blog private and invited her follwers, that way she knew exactly who was reading. The other wanted to share MOST posts with anyone who wanted to read, but like you needed to use the blog as a vent or a way to seek advice. So she would password protect certain posts. That way, she could write out her feelings still, but could decide who could read those posts by sending them the password to the protected ones. Hope the rest of your summer is peaceful.
I know what you mean! I hope you have a lot less stress coming your way.
Aimee- Thank you for the hugs and kind words :)
A- I didn't know that option #2 was available...will definitely consider this. And it isn't meant to be offensive (although you've been reading here a while so I didn't mean you!). It's more related to my own awareness of what I am putting "out there". Because it's never my intention to hurt feelings...just to vent & maybe even get a little sound advice. Kind of like right now :)
No offense at all! I know what you mean about being aware of what you put out there. When I was going through all of my miscarriages, I didn't tell anyone - family or friends. I just distanced myself by not going to baby showers or seeing anyone or anything baby related. So when I started this blog, it was a long time before I shared it with anyone, cause that was how my family and many friends found out. Sometimes I even worry that the Salad will read it in many years and have a sense there were days I didn't enjoy them. And while that may be true, I hope it doesn't hurt too badly. ;)
I think it is your blog and you should be able to write what you want. If you think there are people who are going to take things the wrong way or make judgements (and share them) than I would go to the invite route. It is supposed to be a way of venting, sharing and storing memories not creating issues you don't need. I guess I wait to see if I get an invite.LOL. I won't be offended if I don't. YOu could always blog under a fictious name too.
Anyone who commented here thus far would be invited if I even end up going that route. I might also just get a bit creative with the tougher stuff...
well, then I guess I'd better comment ;)
j/k. a great phrase i just heard/saw: my drama meter just tilted. ahahahahaha.
so this week is back to school around here-- NO KIDDING. thank god I don't have to worry about anything for another 2 weeks, hee hee. but i totally hear you about this stuff- what CAN we blog about anymore? it's like that seinfeld episode- worlds colliding!
also, aimee- no wonder you post so many cute kid pics! :)
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