Facebook is something I never thought I would get into but I am totally hooked! It's actually kind of cool to reconnect with old friends and is also a nice way to keep in touch with family. In the mix of some of those old friends are 3 former boyfriends that are my "friends" on Facebook.
Not sure if you do this too but I occasionally think back to someone who I dated and imagine what would have happened if I had ended up married to that person. I don't do that because I am unhappy with who I DID marry...it's just an idea I entertain. Encountering these various exes online & the memories that crop up as a result, it has become very clear to me that once kids enter your life, it can be very unsettling to let your mind wander (or wonder) too far.
I start to feel guilty...not because I think I am being unfaithful to my husband...but because wondering what would have happened if I married someone else is a little like being unfaithful to my children. Michael and Liam would not exist if Mike & I had not married and procreated. At least, that is my belief...so thinking of any other life path involves imagining my life without them---which is not something I want to do!
It reminds me of Michael J Fox (in Back to the Future) staring at that picture of himself & his siblings and watching them each fade and disappear as the fate of his parents' romance hangs in the balance....
Daydreams are nice but in all the ways that matter, my life is already my dream come true :)
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Facebook is kind of wild that way! It is interesting to think about different ways your life might have gone, but nice to know you are really happy with the reality! :-)
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