There are things I need to write about and some might be easier to post if I could be 100% sure that no one other than me would stumble upon this little blog of mine. That isn't really the point though, is it? I think part of me has to believe that someone will eventually read this stuff. Otherwise, why wouldn't I just use a traditional journal or a format other than one that resides on the internet?
I scheduled an entry to post next week. It's an important one for me. It is vastly different from anything I've ever written about here. I have many fears about having it actually post and even more terrifying is the idea that someone other than me might actually read it.
It's part of a long journey of healing that I've been on and I think it's just time for me to take this step. I am praying for the courage to keep it on the schedule.
I hope that I can reconnect with a little blogging community. I definitely felt such a sense of support when I used to both write and read blogs more regularly. I've gradually lost touch with that because I started wondering if I had anything to write that was worthy of a blog post. I need to let go of that worry.
This blog is a story, my story, daily life with my family, a little piece of me. An audience is nice, no doubt, but in the end the story is the essential piece. An audience is just a bonus.
2 comments:
For what it's worth, I am still reading! :) I will pray that you are able to share what you need to share.
I know what you mean. Over on my own blog, it used to be a sort of online community of moms with kids in similar stages, but most of those women aren't blogging/reading anymore. Now it's almost entirely people that I know in real life who are just checking on what we've been up to. They hardly ever comment on the blog, but they comment in person about things I post. Otherwise I'm not sure I would keep it up, because it appears (from the lack of comments) that no one is reading. :)
I'm glad to see you're still writing and thanks for coming to my blog.
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