This evening, I sent out my official "I won't be returning to full time work" notice to both my boss and her boss. I drafted this about 1.5 weeks ago and then just let it sit for a while so I could think about it and make sure I was ready to drop that news.
And today I was just ready...too many people are starting to ask if I am coming back--I have to notify the daycare--I am a bad liar when it comes to those things. I can only look a certain number of people in the eye & deliver my standard (dishonest) line.
It's the right decision...there are many things that I have become aware of in the past month or so and these things make it clear to me that full time is not the way to go at this point in our lives. The practical side of making it work is something that we need to iron out properly but I have confidence that we can figure out those details.
This pregnancy has changed me and it's not just due to hormonal overload. I can't quite put it into words just yet but a light has been shown on some areas of life that I am neglecting.
Many of my friends balance home and work quite beautifully and I admire what they are able to accomplish. I also acknowledge their great efforts in making things work for their families. I don't feel that same sense of harmony. And I can't say I would feel it even if we weren't about to welcome baby #3.
So that's where we are...I took the coward's way out and sent the email after hours. And tomorrow, I will have the real conversation with my boss. I am hopeful that she will be understanding.
5 comments:
I'm proud of you! How did the conversation go?
It ended up that my boss was out sick today! But both "bosses" who I sent the email to responded with support. So that was a good thing! I think they appreciated that I let them know now rather than when I was already on the scheduled maternity leave.
To clarify: I will still be working until December 4th or when baby arrives (due date is Dec 10.
Hey, there is nothing cowardly about the way you gave notice. In fact, it's really the best way; your boss has some time to think about it before you sit down to have a conversation. Your conversation will be more productive that way.
This was a tough decision for you. You gave it thoughtful consideration, and you should feel good about it. You did not do anything lightly. I'd consider the whole process for you a job well done.
I admire you being able to step back and do what you felt you needed to do. I think too many people make a decision and then stay stuck in something that isn't best for THEM.
I can't believe how soon the baby will be here!
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